Janelle Brown simply spent her first Thanksgiving with out her son, Garrison.
However he was by no means removed from her thoughts.
As Sister Wives followers sadly know at this level, Garrison took his personal life this previous March on the younger age of 25, having been discovered on the time in his Arizona residence by his brother, Gabe.
Authorities then confirmed that Garrison died of a self-inflicted gunshot wound.
Garrison Brown and his mom, Janelle, on Sister Wives. (TLC/Youtube)
Quick ahead to November 29 and Janelle making it clear through Instagram simply how a lot she was pondering of Garrison amid a family-oriented event.
“First of the ‘big’ holidays without you sweetheart,” the 55-year outdated wrote alongside a childhood picture of her son.
“All of us gathered in NC to have fun collectively and stored your picture shut by. We laughed about your foolish humorousness and informed so many tales honoring you.
“We ate, played games and enjoyed each other’s company. Everyone is returning home now and normal life resumes tomorrow. But I feel you close by.”
Garrison Brown died by suicide at age 25. RIP. (Picture Credit score: TLC)
We actually can not think about the ache Janelle should have been experiencing on Thanksgiving — or the ache she experiences on a regular basis, actually.
Within the months since Garrison handed away, Janelle has been spending numerous time in North Carolina with daughter Madison Brush, son-in-law Caleb Brush and their youngsters.
The mom of six even bought a plot of land on the East Coast for $289,000, the place she is constructing Taeda Farms together with her family members.
Late final month, Brown additionally introduced a enjoyable new enterprise enterprise.
Janelle Brown talks about life on Sister Wives Season 19. (TLC)
Talking to Folks Journal in September, Janelle delved into the horrible day she discovered Garrison was gone… together with all he was going by means of up till that horrible second.
“We just had no idea that he was in that place,” Janelle informed Folks again then, including that “substance abuse” doubtless performed a job in his mind-set previous to his demise. “But he didn’t ever express any kind of extreme sad feelings.”
In response to the official post-mortem report, Garrison had a VERY excessive blood-alcohol stage upon committing suicide.
His roommates additionally informed native police that he had been consuming closely round this time.
Janelle Brown appears to be like sullen after confronting household at a marriage. (TLC)
In a textual content message the evening earlier than he died, Garrison did admit to suicidal tendencies… which prompted Janelle to ask son Gabe to go verify on his brother.
Gabe did so, and got here throughout his physique.
“We actually were having conversations. He had all the resources that he could have needed,” the Sister Wives star stated this fall about her son’s psychological state. “This was just such a shock. We just never expected this.”
Ultimately, Brown is clearly crestfallen.
But she doesn’t know what she may have achieved to keep away from this tragedy, both.
“It just wasn’t for lack of love or lack of anything,” she beforehand stated.
“And all I can do is think… we always ask ourselves could we have done something more, but I don’t know,” she provides. “I think that’s a grief trap because I think, ultimately, everybody is responsible for their own actions and their own decisions. But we did everything.”
